The Art of What is Fluid

A lot of my thoughts lately have revolved around fluidity. What flows, what makes way when no way seems possible, what moves between where there seems to be no space for movement, or what creates space where no space was. Water is one of these things. Water is kind of a mystery to me, really. The more I think about it, the more I want to expand on it. Kind of like water itself has expanded. Worry is like water, if you let it be. Actually, sometimes I think that people worry more than they drink water. Irony. But what is worry, more than the creation of negative thoughts in ones own mind, and the thinking that those negative thoughts might come to be?

My personal challenge is to stop the worry. It seems like as soon as I finish flushing one concern down the tubes, another comes to mind. But as I notice this pattern I can't help but wonder if it isn't a pattern my mind has created. Maybe it isn't the matters themselves, but the idea that I am used to this feeling of worry, so much so, that my mind has come to understand its place, its constant place.

Overwriting is hard, but most of all I guess I can be thankful that I'm 22 and I'm aware of the traits that I want to have inside my head, and the feelings and thoughts I'm more than prepared to be live without. There is a whole segment of our lives that is chosen FOR US. This stage I refer to as the "live at home " stage. The reason I believe this part of our life is chosen for us is because, during this timespan, we are raised under someone elses ideals and beliefs. It is not until we move out from home that we have the ability to make our own decisions, and life choices accordingly. * I understand there are cases where infants and children experience complete freedom of choice and feeling in their upbringing, and to all of these extraordinary exceptions, high praise. For myself, I did not learn about freedom until recently, as even after I moved away and had the opportunity to claim my life for myself, I felt a reluctancy to even understand how to live my life to the fullest of my personal capability. How to flow to my own understanding, and how to make the most of the least and the full of the empty.

Thinking about flow opens my mind. These past three years, as I've been building my creative team of friends/collaboraters, I have felt a constant flow. These people bring me peace, and joy. They lift me up, and enlighten me with their ideas, and insights, and open minds. I am forever thankful for variety of perspective, and for all mankind that has pushed me to think outside the box. The outside of the box is what brings us out of worry, and also what increases the flow.

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