The fabulous word "Why?"

I was born a why child. There we alot of things I didn't understand about my upbringing, because the answers I was given when I asked why didn't clear up the question for me. To this day I am very much the same way. For the past week the safety inspector has been at me non-stop. He tells me to put my hard

hat on, I do it, he walks away, I take it off. Its not that I can't follow rules, I can. What I can't do is follow rules that have no meaning or purpose. For several days now we've been doing finishing work. No bob cats or tractors, nothing. Why do I need to where my hard hat when there is nothing above or around me that could inflict any type of harm, I ask myself, before placing the hat on the ground beside my other tools. I've asked my coworkers, and they too cannot comprehend the rule.

I often find that times I am most unhappy in my life are when I cannot find the answer to my favorite question "Why". "Why am I here right now?" "Why am I doing this?" " Why am I tolerating this in my life?"

The funny thing I've found about the question "why" is, when all is good and well, "why" seems to disappear, and I have very little to no reason to ask it. Of course there will be exceptions in day to day life, like: "why do I have to wear this hard hat, even though none of the heavy machinery is being used and there is clearly nothing above or even around me?" and so forth. Such is some of the humor of why.

I can appreciate all aspects of "why". I understand that "why" becomes more present in my life, it may be time to think hard for answers and then make changes accordingly to illiminate the "whys". I understand that when "whys" are less, it doesn't mean I am learning less by any means, but that I am, for a moment, questioning less. I can absolutely appreciate any moments in life that come to me without question. It is in those moments that I've often feel like I've arrived. I am where I am supposed to be, and I can be so engaged and content in that moment at that time that I feel no need to question a single thing. That feeling is fabulous.

Finally, there have been times in my own life when I have been honored to have been asked a "why" question. I feel so honored to be picked to answer these very special questions, and I try to be as detailed as possible as I explain what I feel is my answer from my own perspective. I try not to push, but rather to influence/inspire by immense explanation based on experience.

I have also been graced by the fabulous presence of specific human beings that can understand my need for detail when I have a "why". I have been taught and molded by these people, and they have inspired me to share beautiful, vivid explanations in all areas that I can. <3

Photo credits to Conor Teahen!

I used some photo collage app to compile them in this way.

Dress is from Le Reve.