Growth and Visualization

I've noticed a pattern in the growth of my career. The more I expand and gain more experience in my field, the deeper I look into the attention to detail of the particular job or contract I am doing. I think about the opportunity in itself; what caused it to occur? What did I do to contribute to that occurrence? What can be done to increase the chance of its happening again or even continuously in my life? What kind of thoughts can I have that will refocus my mind and my attitude to a place where I feel confident in the abundance that is already here, and all that is coming.

I've found my biggest setback to myself and my business are my own crash and burn tendencies. I can be very inspired at times. I feel as though there are an infinite amount of ideas and insights inside me, practically bursting at the seems. I search for the appropriate ways to express myself and share a message I feel is important and pure. And sometimes I burn. I have lows, as we all do, which balance out the highs and make me normal. Those lows, however, have set me back so much, so many times. I realize that the thing that makes the lows so impact filled is the thoughts I have when I feel low, and the sincere intensity of those thoughts.

I might have just spent two days networking on behalf of my business. If was anxious during that time, or feeling discouraged or overwhelmed in that time frame, that networking is as good as useless to me. The mental state behind what I'm doing is everything. An average low would normally contain hours of internal self doubt. I thought of my lows as a brutally sad time filled with many thoughts I wish I hadn't thought later on. These habits that come with my lows can be very harmful. Spending time in doubt and sadness about my career is the same as backtracking. Its basically taking back tons and tons of hard work and sincere effort.... why? When I'm feeling sad or discouraged my energy is different. When I have discouraging wavelengths, they then extend outward into the world around me to make way for a new reality. A reality I really do not want.

Becoming aware of these harmful tendencies has helped me to redirect my thoughts to a safer and less harmful level of development. There is no reason to feel discouraged or upset.. especially when looking towards my career. No matter what the setback, or change, I have attained a better understanding of what my contributions are in the workplace, and to my fellow human. These contributions fill me with warmth and reassure me that I am an asset. I can do good things during my time here on earth. I don't feel as though I need to reach for the stars outside of that goal.

I do not need to feel upset for what I do not yet have, because the frustrating feelings of not having it push it further away than it was. Nothing will bring me closer to my dreams and the things I want than my focus on them, exactly the way I want them to be. So I do this. I focus intently on the things I am excited about, the things I can't wait for, and the things I dream for. If you think this is delusion that is absolutely fine! You do what works for you, and I will do the same. I've had more experiences in my life than I can count, where I have manifested a specific situation or event into my life. There were so many times I was unaware I had caused things to come into my life with my thoughts. I find the impact of the manifestation much more valuable when I've brought the circumstance about with intention and practice. I look forward to a day not far from now, where a period of each of my day (as is already) is dedicated specifically to the visualization and intentional manifestation of my future.

I practice manifestation daily via design. I spend time internally, thinking about what I want to make, what is visually appealing, what works on the female form, what fabrics feel good against the body, what patterns look best what way, etc. I can do my best to be better everyday, but also need to remember I'm only human. Sometimes I feel I want it all in the same day. It takes a lot of time as I slowly gain a gradual understanding of why I can't have it all in a day. Besides, if I did that, what would I have to look forward to tomorrow?

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