June Commence

The month started off swiftly and with great momentum. Towards the end of May I popped into the IATSE building as I'd received an email stating my permit card was ready to be picked up. I had applied and received a card last year, but was unable to speak with anyone that was able to give me any insight or any idea as to how to get involved. When I got the updated email about the new card, I was sure I wanted to make sure to talk with someone who could give me some insight. Upon arrival I was greeted by a new and friendly receptionist that was able to direct me to the people that would be able to answer my many questions. My main question was about how to get involved. The IATSE card serves as a permit that allows individuals with the proper requirements and credits to work in theatre/film environments.

I was given any guarantees on work or getting calls, but had an amazing conversation with two very friendly, helpful and creative people. I left the building with a huge smile on my face, feeling confident that my will to be involved in creative work environments will get me to where I need to be. Days later I received my first call from IATSE.

I've felt many changes in myself and the Calgary marketplace/workplace since my last visit here. I spent a bit of time reflecting and trying to understand the changes and where I belong within them. As weeks proceed I feel the traction building and see the schedule filling fast. It feels dreamy as I look in my calendar and I see only creative & artistic events in my schedule.

I think back on the past years and all the work I did out of compromise, instead of passion; feeling obligated to subsidize my income with something more practical, because who makes money from art? Turns out lots of people do. I realize that focus and a strong intent to do what you set out to do will lead you where you want to go. Yeah, it takes time and effort to even decide what those desires are, but I find that time to be well worth it.

Getting further into 2017 I've realized that if you don't tell your life what you want from it, you can't expect it to know. It even looks fundamental as I write it, but the truth is it takes time and practice to know what you want and also to be dedicated to it. More so than knowing what you want and having the courage to be/do it, is also knowing you have the value and right as a human being to do and have the things you want in life. Last month I had a few simple mantras that really kept me going; they may resonate with you, they may not. I will share them regardless:

1) " What you are seeking is seeking you"

2) "seek and you will find"

3) " ask and you will receive"

I find these mantras very powerful. They ease my mind and help me to remember that everything is in motion right now; these feelings, thoughts and vibrations, they are moving right now. Knowing and believing in this momentum can sometimes make me feel like really anything is possible. A simple paradigm shift can make all that once felt/appeared one way, seem another. Another amazing realization for me is knowing and understanding both the external and internal shifts and changes that occur. Sometimes it seems as if the world has stood still, and the only thing that has changed is how I look at it. Regardless of whether the change is external or internal, the impact is huge. I'm so grateful to have access to so many resources for insight and positive encouragement.

The photos I've posted today are from Blair Dunlop. These paintings are a finished version of a project we had started before I left BC. I love receiving his creative works as he finishes them. I find him so talented and dedicated to his craft.