Wrap up process

It's really sinking in for me that I'm in the final countdown of my time here. Not sure when I'll be back, I'm excited to move forward to old and new creative resources. It's been a blissfully creative time over the past few weeks. Classes at ACAD have prevailed for me all summer long. I've loved coming to the school and working with such a vast variety of growing artists. It's so refreshing to see so many individuals getting out and following their dreams. Now for a short story:

I woke up to bad news, in the form of an email . I tried to be open minded, but to sum up a whole lot of emotions into 1, I was not happy with what had happened. Frustrated and confused, tears filled my eyes as I stare at the carpet, wondering what force of nature causes these things to happen. Seeking wisdom and distraction, I called my sister. Our relationship has traveled over many paradigms and changes. Through it all I've come to love her on a level I'm not sure I truly understand. It is greater than me, and it is stronger than me., It is powerful and I feel immensely grateful for it. I stay close to this feeling and build a foundation around it, reminding myself how gratifying it is to me to just reflect and appreciate the people I care about the most. Not everyone has these people. Not everyone feels this love. She had all kinds of feedback for me about my "troubles" and had me proactively seeking inquiry into the situation within 15 minutes.

In retrospect of my unfortunate news and events, I feel absolutely loved and supported today. As a free-thinker and soul-seeking individual, it's important for me to have time to think and reflect and build on my desires and dreams of being of positive impact, choosing avenues that resonate with me, and connecting with people who care on a deeper level. At the same time, I realize that as I take the time to do this and transform my lifestyle, there is a gap between what I do and a general understanding of how I can sustain myself with it, etc. I can see and understand this. My main justification to this gap is that my lifestyle and means of sustainability might not be for the "general" to understand. My lifestyle has been customized for me and the people I love, and my existence over time is proof of my sustainability on a truthful level.

I understand that as similar as we may look and although we may live in the same place, there is an infinite variety of circumstances separating us, and I've found that when I can identify and work through my own "circumstances" (where I come from and what I've learned from that) I can work to form a lifestyle around my true character, values and desires.

That chunk was fairly heavy so I'm going to bring things back to a more creative place now.

This week is looking vibrant and filled with creativity. Tomorrow I will shoot with a client who I haven't seen in about a year! I look forward to the catch up and the creative flow. My artistic friend Al has also been in touch lately regarding some sculpting work.

I can tell that August will indeed be the strong finish I had anticipated. Clearly focused on what I know I need to do and finish before my time here is done.

I've attached some work from ACAD. I've been posing there quite consistently over the summer. I absolutely love hearing from them!