Voices and Choices

Hi Friends,

It's been an interesting week and I'd love to share bits and pieces of it with you.

In a lot of ways, this coming winter meets me with an eerie feeling. Tons of fog., mornings I can't see 5 feet ahead on the road., Wild winds, sweeping across the trees on one of few sunny days., Weather aptitudes I'm not used to experiencing. I feel strangely attracted to the eeriness. It's mystical to me, and un-explainable in many ways. Yesterday on my way to a shoot I came across the foggiest valley, the hills were clearing but driving down towards the lake, the community was smothered in a deep mist. Goosebumps covered me and I slowed as the road got harder and harder to see. Off to the left just ahead were a buck and a deer. So beautiful, mystically standing off to the side of the road just perfectly and calmly as I past. It's possible I am enjoying this season already more than I ever imagined I could.

I've spent a lot of time observing and speculating upon the creative ongoing's of the city and I'm feeling prepared and ready to be more proactively involved. Not too many details on this yet, but calls have been made and connections established. I hope to showcase some work and spread some creative magic.

It's Friday which means it's pretty much all about modelling today. I'm at the blenz around the corner from my OC class which starts in t-20 mins, and this afternoon I'll be at CATO for a second class. I can honestly say it's one of my most relaxing days of the week. It feels refreshing to do something based from and around passion. Some days require other "talents".

The lack of sun and cloudy skies don't take my inspiration away, instead they transform it. I still have will to create and build, but I have different ideas. I think it's a good thing. It seems the different seasons provoke different feelings of inspiration inside me.

It's been interesting, being back in a smaller city after adjusting to a bigger place, with more people and resources. I see a big difference in attitude. When I lived in Calgary I felt so many people had a fantastic, can do attitude. In comparison, I feel a strong sense of "it hasn't been done here before so why try now" . Maybe not that exact feeling, but one of similarity. I can't put my finger on it but its real and I feel it. I think I need to put more time and consideration into who I am sharing details of my life with, and why I feel that may have value or benefit.

There's a difference between being genuinely passionate with like minded people versus communicating your goals and dreams with people that don't and unintentionally can't understand or capacitate your lifestyle or reasoning for your own doings and chosings. There is friction., and sometimes disbelieve. It makes something true and exciting, less so. I find it better not to share at all with those who might hold disbelieve towards what is passion. I've had to learn this, being here. I realize not everyone cares for creativity. Not everyone can see the beauty in the simple, the beauty in the being, the beauty in the land. I also realize it is not my place to make them see it. I think its more important to focus intentionally on personal goals and future doings, being strong and not giving heed to skepticism. Our thoughts can of course hold us back if we let them, but our dreams can take us to places we've never been as well.

I've featured some favorites from Chris Mcmullen Below.

This is my last Calgary set and one I'm happy to close the summer series with.

I made the skirt & set. I'm still just as drawn to the colors and tones. I'd love to find more like this for ongoing designs.